another step..

fredrick checked my mail today and i got a letter from the housing company in massachusetts that i've applied to and am in the process of verifying my housing with them because i've reached the top of their waiting list. they sent me the CORI form in the mail which i need for the next step of retaining housing in the apartment. i honestly don't remember requesting the CORI form and i had just assumed that i needed to call the massachusetts housing themselves and provide them with information.. it might be my bad memory making me forget, i may have notified them the last time i called them to check on my status a few days ago. so, it won't take as long to get outta this state now. i just need the ics worker to assist me in filling out the CORI forms (which she opened the letter with the CORI form in it and set it aside for us to fill out.. i hope she'll help me at least start on it tomorrow morning during the ics session).
the lack of support should provide enough of a reason for me having the desire to live ELSEWHERE where i can actually get the resources and tools to live constructively and successfully. amanda and anyone else wondering why i don't wanna remain in this state with social security being my only income and hauling my ass back and forth to courage kenny mindlessly while they don't help me actually progress because they can take advantage of my lack of care and advocacy by keeping me depending on them as much as possible since no one in their right minds wanna attend some overrated excuse of a "rehabilition facility" just to keep working on machines that DON'T progress you, they just make the average joe think that they're actually helping them. OF COURSE THEY PREY ON THE PEOPLE THAT LACK KNOWLEDGABLE, CARING ADVOCACY! THAT MAKES ME A TARGET! THANKS AMANDA! YOU MAKE EVERYONE AROUND ME SUPPOSEDLY "SUPPORTING" ME LOOK STUPID AND CARELESS AS WELL AS A BUNCH OF NAIVE TOOLS! THAT MEANS YOU TOO! thank courage kenny for this! that's to anyone with intelligence anyway. just like i realized i stopped saying something i always used to say because i remember my sister trying to mimic me and i realized how stupid she sounded saying it- so i haven't said it since (telling people to "settle down"). thanks amy! you show me how stupid i sound at times! i'm not sure if it just seemed more smart to say because it was original but when you have stupid sisters that take what you say, attempting to make it seem like they came up with it- she showed me how stupid it was. i'm pretty sure she attempts to use my blog as her own personal playbook because she's so insecure that she doesn't think that her own ideas are wise to do. she might be right but i can guarantee you- she can never do the shit i do and have it work out. she'll just end up getting killed and/or seeing her own demise. THERE'S NO SHORTCUTS, FATSY.